past, now, Jesus.

I see pictures from my past and shame floods my heart. I want to hid, I want to forget about all the ways I searched for beauty, acceptance, and love with my body. I beat my body up; working out and doing crazy diets. I spent excessive money on clothes that I thought would make […]

hearing His voice.

I wouldn’t say I am an expert on this topic, not even close and I know there are so many sermons out there about discerning the voice of God. Sometimes I think we, or at least I, can make it so complicated that it becomes a checklist to hear his voice. And I believe it’s […]

hope that remains.

Hope.  Where do you get your hope? Where is your hope found in? What do you do when what you hope in runs out, leaves you, ends? I have learned the hard way that hoping in tangible things, even people, leaves you empty. For so much of my life, I kept running after people’s affections, […]

my story [set free].

I have never yet shared my story on here and I am not sure why, so here is my story. Rejection stung at a young age when my mom wasn’t there emotionally for me and the pain lingered, noticeably ignored. My dad got me involved in church and at a young age I believed that […]

In the silence…

Silence. I pray, seek, ask, beg… yet silence.  I hear nothing from you God, where have you gone? Why have you left me? Feelings. You feel so far Lord, I just want to feel you near, I want to feel you close. I feel nothing Lord.  But what are feelings that they are greater than […]

we don’t have to be perfect.

I realized something today. I realized that with being a bible study leader and working at an after school program that I have been so caught up in a Martha attitude. [Luke 10:38-42] I have been so caught up in doing this and doing that perfectly that I forgot to just be still before the […]

I can’t be all these things.

I am going to be honest, this past week has been a struggle for me. I have felt so overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by all the things that I think I have to be, all of the expectations I am placing on myself. How can I be a daughter, a sister, a friend, a leader, a disciple, […]